REASONS TO LIVE

The mountain ahead of me is far

but I don’t see it as unreachable,

that’s all the justification I need to chase my dreams,

for what lies inside of me must be closer than that mountain,

guide me to the water

where I can see you

you blue me away

I fear I have found another reason to live

there aren’t many of those,

they dissolve -

- hungrily grab another one, scrape your fingers desperately through the gravelled sand

Let me enjoy my last few days of sun

that’s what I came here for,

but you gave me rain, that’s very unlike you

You remind me of home,

without the palms

and most times, at home,

I think about you

I’m torn between where I am and where I am

I -

am without home, without love, with much loss

These castles are not built for my survival

I will find myself rolling down the slope with my enemies

This armour it’s heavy

I -

I am suffocating

Tilt my face towards the cracks in the ground where the water is flowing

Hydrate me

   Speak with your body not with your mouth

I close my eyes and hold my position

the beads of sweat glimmering in the pale blue light

I see red

I rise into form, poised, my head held tall

I won’t stop until I kill that beast

As I dance around my mountain

I dissolve like my reasons to live,

into paradise,

where have you been?

everywhere

well you left the best until last.